7 Nov
Have you ever known a real love?
The kind of love that makes you feel, love?
No, this ain’t let’s make a deal, love
It’d make an angel give his wings up
If it makes you guilty ’cause you want more
If it’s a kiss that you would die for
Feels like you’re falling through the stars
If it could break your heart
It’s real love
Oh, how I adore the new album.
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9 Nov 16
Am I witnessing the turn of history? Would it be the beginning of an economic reform, the one where American economy will pull the world economy up and above? Or am I the very first generation of the new World War?
We have officially entered uncharted territory. There is nothing to indicate, apart from the similar rise of popularism in the mid-20th century. But I am not a historian, and though history tends to repeat itself, what are we to do but hope? We go about minding our business, making plans, drawing dreams, living our small life, and all the while hope that governments would have some sense, and tomorrow will actually be alright.
After all, tomorrow wasn’t build to last.
A left-leaning me actually felt quite sad to see republicans seizing the Senate, the House and the Presidency like that. All the progresses about abortion rights, and freedom of marriage, and what not. But hey, it is their life who voted right?
Would I look back in my 50s, and laugh at myself for being so scared? Or would I look back and dream about the good ol’ past? Or would I even exist at all?
One thing for sure, any immigrant would have to double their effort from now on.
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14 Nov
A friend of mine asked me to try to understand where the opposing ideas are coming from, and why people have them and stand by them.
Well, I do not, and will never deny that people are entitled to their opinions. Although I admit that at times I am baffled, I am not in any position to tell other people what they should think.
Well, then neither should they.
There is a reason why adultery is legally acceptable. To pass one’s religious/moral standing as law is just not right.
I am not Catholic, or Protestant, or Christian, or in any religion for that matters. So why should I think that gay marriage is against God’s will? Why should I think that life begins the moment egg meets sperm (seriously)?
Law is for everybody, regardless of religions or moral standings. Law is harsh and absolute. It represents the right of the people, be it Latinos, gay, single moms, Catholics, free-thinkers, or aliens. The right of the people should not be dictated by the understanding of a group of people who try to pass it off to all other people.
Religious beliefs are individual. Moral standing is even more so. That is why law should create a choice for people to follow their beliefs, if their beliefs do not hurt the society or other individuals physically/financially.
A law should not state that it bans gay marriage on the sole ground that it is against God’s will. It should create a choice: if you believe in your religion, fine, you live your life as you wish – you love only people of the opposite sex, you teach your children so, you only hang out with people of your same understandings. But hey, who are you to outlaw other people’s life when it does not hurt you?
And I know, abortion right is always a sticky subject. But no, when egg meets sperm (!), the cell is not a human. Period. The cell needs to divide, develop, divide again, time and time, before it can be barely recognised. If anyone wants to out-law late term (3rd trimester) abortion, fine – it would be dangerous to the mother anyway. But early term? It may ruffle lots of feathers, but early-term embryo is not a functioning human. Women do not even know they are pregnant until at least a month later, in many cases.
And just so if I try to understand it, even if the embryo was a human. There is no law requiring a person to donate to another person an organ so that the other person can survive. It is never illegal for me to keep the kidney that you need. Then why would it be illegal for the woman to refuse to ‘donate’ the resources that an embryo needs?
Anyway, why do people think that those who would really want an abortion would stop? They can, and will, go to underground clinics, which will result in a much more horrible tragedy. And forcing mother (and father) to raise a kid when they are not mentally, financially, socially prepared will just be cruel for both kid and parents alike. Anyway, the impact is always much heavier on the mother.
Many who voted on the law are men, who do not, and cannot know the extent of pregnancy and the pains it may bring to the mother. Heck, they do not even know how it would be like to have period pain. We are not asking for any thing extreme. All we are asking is to be given a choice – the freedom to choose what we should do. For those who would like to deliver and raise the child – bravo. For those who are not prepared enough – give them a safe option to go to.
A choice, such a luxurious demand.
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15 Nov
New Year. No matter what, no matter where, you go home.
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Every social issue is an economic issue.
I do not say that as long as we are rich, we will automatically become racially harmonic, or religiously tolerant, or genderly equal. No, that is a long, difficult battle the world will have to continue fighting.
People, however, would be willing to open to societal changes when their food source is secure. When you are barely meeting ends’ need, there will be no time for social causes or all that bullshit. All that people see is them losing their jobs to people of another race/country/class, that their life is upside down, and that somehow, amidst this hell of a crisis, those snobbish, elite politicians still managed to not give a damn. Central to almost all social movements or counter-movements is the same question again and again. Where is my job? Where did my money go?
Economic hardship will put people under survival mode. It put them in the “us vs. them” battle that nobody wins.
We are lucky. I mean, I am lucky to be on the winning side of globalisation (for now). We are the immigrants, the new work force pouring into richer countries. We are the university-educated, white-collar professionals. We are the mobilisers. We are the ones screaming for open-border.
It is hard, being one the wrong side of the trend. Globalisation is expensive; and some expenses can only be measured by blood. Will the Greater Good be great still, if it brings goodness to the society and the world as a whole, but punishes many individuals in the process? Will the answer be to let natural selection do its job; or to go inward and try to reverse the damages done to the left-outs? We all know the textbook solution: to create programs to re-educate and re-locate the workforce. However, textbook is rarely real life.
I was walking around, just a face in the crowd
Trying to keep myself out of the rain
Saw a vagabond king wear a styrofoam crown
Wondered if I might end up the same
There’s a man out on the corner
Singing old songs about change
Everybody got their cross to bare, these days
These days – the stars seem out of reach
But these days – there ain’t a ladder on the streets
These days are fast, nothing lasts in this graceless age
Even innocence has caught the midnight train
And there ain’t nobody left but us these days
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28 Nov
I think they have a word for people like me. Map Trotting.
For I am the hybrid of a traveler and a tourist. Sometimes it is cool. Sometimes it is hard to fit in this delicate hole. A lot of times it is about trade-offs.
I always have a questionable uneasiness towards being tourist in a true sense of tourist. You take on an organized tour, you stay in hotel chain, you check-in at landmarks. Is it me? Surely I must not be that lame? Every time. Not hard to find me looking at a couple going on honeymoon on tourbus sympathetically (how difficult it is to navigate in Bangkok that you have to pay people to do so for you??). Passionately hate letting professionals take care of my itinerary. Or pre-set timing and determined-upon destinations (lots of them include shopping). Or the stupid caps/team T-shirts.
On the other hand, never have enough courage to travel in the true sense of travelling. I like things convenient – which means my favourite next destination should be somewhere modern and easy enough. Somewhere with established transportation system, and safe, and relatively wealthy. I like things clean – which means going full nature or into remote, toilet-free, hot shower-free countryside is unthinkable. Ever wonder why I go back to EU so often? Or why Japan and the US are much higher in my list than, say, Cambodia and all of its rustic beauty? Or why I officially passed the phase of sleeping in hostels?
I am a half-hearted traveller who likes Airbnb so much (the upper part of Airbnb with cleanliness grade above 8, by the way), who checks on toilet condition religiously before booking, who shivers at the idea of a 7-day train ride, who prefers plane than overnight bus, who chooses restaurants over a street food cart.
I am a snobbish tourist who shuns the idea of going on a tour bus with 30 people, who thinks she is better at organizing the trip herself, who takes pride in navigating an unknown place, who once in a while tries to go out of the big cities.
Somehow it works. Sometimes beautifully; sometimes frustratingly. But it works and I just keep rolling and rolling and rolling (to established locations, big cities, landmarks, civilised societies. anyway).
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30 Nov
Sometimes when I happen to stumble upon a piece of newspaper depicting some criminal trials against pregnant women for ending their pregnancy intentionally, or even unintentionally, it hurts. Well, but their country, their choice, right.
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Imagine the next man on the street that you see. He doesn’t work. He drinks and/or does drug. He is a burden of the welfare system. In other word, he takes your hard-earned tax money while paying nothing himself. But he has a birth-right, right? That somehow he was lucky to be born in your country. That he chose the correct parental nationality.
Now imagine the immigrant in your office. He came to your country, paid full money enroll in a university – the amount of which is worth multiples of your education fee; and of which is used to refurbish your school so that all of you will have a better environment to thrive in. He works in your company, being admitted there after fair-and-square interviews, after overcoming the myriads of regulations favoring native job seekers. He pays tax equally – no discrimination on that one!! His hard-earned tax money goes into funding the roads you drive, the public schools and hospitals you use. In the meantime, he receives nothing – his children’s school fee, his family’s medical bill will be way, way higher than yours. Because he is just a foreigner. Right? Because he is here to steal your job and your place, to be a “burden” of your society. So he must pay dearly to live in a place where he actually contributes something into.
Think about it. Who is the real burden? Why as an immigrant, I should receive less and be in a worse place than the worst of your country?
Globalisation, like anything else, works on large scale only. It all comes down to whether the losers of the trend scream loud enough.